hebinekohime: (living in cities), Electric colors forever.
"The future is already here, it's just unevenly distributed" - from William Gibson's twitter

I think the Internet should change politics. Not just how existing politics are done, but the nature of the politics we have. We didn't have a decentralized, densely interconnected mass culture before now. Maybe we're trying to shoehorn old ideas into a new society. Maybe there are ways to defang oppressive power structures that address both libertarian and socialist concerns, and maybe they're byproducts of a platform that's based on people networking.

People can't be isolated, misinformed without recourse, or told "that's never been done" when it has. That's big. That has people scared about 'low quality information', when they mean 'information that we/those we trust can't control'. Books denounce Wikipedia, while Wikipedia has their own backlash in the form of deletionism and heavy-handed editorial policies; meanwhile, blogs and informal networks make sure the signal gets out. Sure, we're in a young, awkward phase, and the playground tribalism can get out of hand. But I'll take all the tribalism in the world if it defrocks the informational priesthood. And I'm wary of my inner Apollo saying "you can't play around, everything you do has to make perfect sense right this instant".

Right now, I trust open access academic journals more than I do JSTOR. I trust fansubs over licensing. I trust the web as my first source of health advice. I trust bloggers over print journalists, and I trust people speaking truth to power on Tumblr. I like the extent to which the web has made life "do it yourself". And I'm interested in the extent to which it can make life "do it ourselves", which I think we haven't totally learned yet, because we're still getting used to the ways in which these communities are formed and how they interact with each other and with their own physical counterparts.

Maybe we should have an American Network Party. Not American in the sense of "America first", but in the sense of "this is a localized part of something greater, insofar as we need to be represented as citizens of a particular country".

I like some of what Anonymous is doing. I think the next step will be not being anonymous, and presenting ourselves as visible groups, but without the old fashioned 'power to the people' rhetoric of OWS. I am the 99%, but I'm also the 1% of the 99%, and that is actually more important to me. More physical communities and support networks should form out of online political factions and identity groups. Maybe even a return to the commune in some form (though I don't know if I'd personally be up for it).

That said, progressive movements could do a better job of getting information out to people who aren't looking. Bringing politics into places where "politics shouldn't go" may be one tactic; fr'ex, it's kind of nice that so many bloggers don't think of their political views and their fandoms as discrete entities.

On a tangent: I think the game of capitalism could be played differently. Too much space is privatized today, but that could be leveraged in society's favor again: perhaps progressive, Green and socialist groups could pool resources, purchase storefronts and plots of land, and set their own 'private property' rules, but make those rules people-friendly. In that way, there'd always be somewhere nice to walk, somewhere to hang around even if you don't have money, and somewhere to camp out if you need to. Shopping centers aren't such bad things, but I really want a commons.
hebinekohime: (freedom of expression)
I guess we're a ways from the kind of attitude that would allow us to see sexual illness as a mental illness issue, something that needs counseling and treatment, rather than evil personified. Or something that can be 'fought against' with boycotts, divestments, and sanctions.

All this wank over a song that's child-buggeringly terrible anyway.

POLITICS. I think it's stupid to need a figurehead for a country and that the role of President should be phased out in favor of something more modular. Really, I think it's stupid to need countries period and that the ideal is nationless anarcho-syndicalism, but it'll be a long, slow process of change before that's workable. As long as we have both, though... can we get rid of presidential incumbency? It's a waste of time and resources. The office should be held for one six-year term.

Also, people, I would love you from the bottom of my heart if you would never use the term "spoiler" in this context again. We may not have broken the duopoly, and I'm still mulling over whether that's a fight that needs to be won... should parties, too, be made obsolete? But it doesn't help when we marginalize existing third parties. My conscience is not a fucking spoiler.

And though I haven't made up my mind about who to support -- other than that it will be a non-Republican, non-Democrat -- I'm pleasantly surprised by Johnson, once more.

I've been a hard line Green/Peace And Freedom supporter all of my voting life. My frustration with those parties has to do with the sense that they don't do enough to fight against preconceptions; that the people who vote for those parties are always going to be of certain types, and anyone who doesn't identify with one of those types will ignore them as a matter of identity. Yes, it's an identity for me, too... it's in my nature to be critical of power, and I'm aware that that does make me of a type. But there are issues beyond identity to that, and if one of these parties actually became a major political force in this country I would side with those issues over some attachment to being "alternative" or lodging a protest vote. I'm angry that most of the people I speak to are so attached to being perceived as relevant that they wouldn't consider third party as an option.

And I'm angry about Kent Mesplay, the Green front-runner. No, I haven't thought out this anger. I just feel disappointed that, at a time when the Libertarian candidate is taking good steps to take the fight to established powers, a party I'm more inclined towards is trotting out this, in my perception, milquetoast guy who will only appeal to milquetoast people. And I like that a candidate is expressing an ethos of cooperation. I really do. I just know that the people who most need to hear that ethos will never be reached by it, unless it's forced on them. This is the dilemma for those of us who want more power, more voice in society, but dislike the ugly business of competition.
hebinekohime: (hear this new sound)
Decision made: I am going to catalogue all of the music I want to own, eventually. I realize it'll never be 100% perfect, but it'll be nice to have it all in one place and I can't rely on Youtube being around forever (to say nothing of all the individual videos; there are already records that would have been lost down the memory hole, if I hadn't made a note of them here).

Since I'll probably add a digital setup at some point this year, I've been window shopping. Here's what I think I'll go for:

Laptop: Asus U46E-BAL6 http://www.proreview.net/reviews/asus-u46e-bal6.html
Software: Traktor Pro 2 http://bangthedj.com/reviews/traktor-pro-2-review/
Controller: Faderfox 3 http://www.digitaldjtips.com/2011/03/review-faderfox-micromodul-dj3-worlds-smallest-traktor-controller/
Sound card: Numark DJ Io http://www.skratchworx.com/reviews/djio.php

I may want to spend more on the sound card, but that would be a potentially sweet setup. I especially love the controller... way too many of these things try to emulate the look of two decks and a mixer, which is completely counterproductive for my needs. I want freedom, I want portability!

I hope to have all this purchased and figured out within the next six months. When I'm confident enough in my skills, I'll get some promo material printed up and start to advertise. I'm looking to play tech-house, house and nu-disco at clubs and bars, and rock/pop at weddings and such. If I have some success in doing that, I want to set up a night for noncommercial and underground music, but the music I can get paid for (while still respecting myself) comes first.

And now I have to back up my words and catch up with my backlog. Again. ^^; As well as that, I hope to let you in on a cool side-project soon.

I failed that 365 Days challenge. >_> The first month was the most interesting, then they started to become more like the usual meme questions. Also, they repeated themselves quite a bit. Still, it was a good way to organize my thoughts, so I'm glad I tried the challenge if only for a little while.

omake

Jan. 30th, 2012 09:33 pm
hebinekohime: (santa hebi)
Leave me a one-word comment about your day that starts with the third letter of your username. Only one word please. Then repost so I can leave a word for you!

([personal profile] lqc is to blame)
hebinekohime: (blissed), cut out from Nano/Fate hotness.
Day 27: A person you wished lived closer and why

It would be cool if Rommie lived closer, because we could go on downtown food crawls and collaborate on music and do other fun things. But! Their being in Utah makes Utah that much more awesome.

Day 28: Something that makes you really angry

Indifference and dismissive attitudes.

Day 29: A date you’d love for someone to take you on

I'd like to be taken to an obscure foreign film at an art-house theatre. Afterwards, we'd go to a nice, upscale vegan restaurant with a romantic atmosphere, then we'd finish the night with either a late-night nature walk or dancing at a goth/industrial nightclub.

Day 30: 5 favorite girls names, 5 favorite boys names

I'm going to cheat a little and use names of my characters. ^^; Girls: Brooksley, Anna, Ai, Rosie, Nicole. Boys: Max, Fletcher, Ramin, Granville, Tsuyoshi.

My inner world has changed so much... many things that I thought were important at 21 aren't now that I'm 31, and a whole new set of experiences and concerns have come in. I'm not burning to write, not now, but it does tug at me, just a little. Someday, someday.
hebinekohime: (santa hebi)
Day 26: 5 things you’re looking forward to

1. Starting piano lessons
2. Akiyuki Shinbo's first theatrical feature film
3. Participating in the Global Goa Party
4. Getting down to Zanzibar and Subversive Film on some nights
5. Seeing my cousins tomorrow =)


I don't think I'll make the free film night tonight, but I am well chuffed that my Goa Party request made it in time. I'll be helming the 12:30AM-2:00AM part of the broadcast. Check the link for details!
hebinekohime: (whispers)
Day 25: A friend you have lost that you’re better off without/one you wish you had back

Locking the answer to this one.
hebinekohime: (a couple of monsters)
Day 24: Your favorite 10 people right now and why

In no particular order:

Dennis Kucinich, for being the one Democrat willing to call the current administration on its bullshit.

Rax, for being an inspiring example of possibilities.

Rik, for showing interest, and for being beautiful.

My first cousin, for always having kind words of support.

My first cousin once removed, for his enthusiasm and being so much cooler than I was at his age.

Lhexa, for his sense of humor, positive outlook, and wise counsel.

Rommie, for their intellect, passion, and compassion.

Dragonmoth, for lending advice in the most difficult situation last year.

Ketsu, for their exuberance.

Dave, for being a fascinating artist and person, and for being nice when he didn't have to be.
hebinekohime: (ritual libation), from Bakemonogatari.
Day 21: Everything you wish for in a significant other

Friendship, sexual compatibility, emotional compatibility. Someone who's in tune with my feelings and I with theirs. I can't speculate more... I just don't know enough to say.

Day 22: How you judge intelligence

By the amount of curiosity someone has.

Day 23: A month/year of your life when you were happiest and why

1993. It was an incredibly optimistic year... everything seemed to be booming all around, and everything spoke of the future. Electronic music (I listened to my first techno CD that year), virtual reality (or the promise of it, anyway), the Web just starting, arcades with crazy 3D polygon games (remember when the word "32-Bit" provoked excitement?), and Mike Judge, MST3K and The Comedy Channel to make fun of all the ways we still hadn't developed. It's the year with my fondest video game memories: Gunstar Heroes and Landstalker on my thirteenth birthday; the Sega CD, with Sonic and all of its junky pack-ins, for Christmas; Gamefan still ruling the roost with its gonzo journalism and slick production.


A nerdy project that made me disappear for a while is finally done: my catalog of most-wanted eighties music! Hooray! It only took dozens of hours of Youtube listening and Discogs cross-checking. With over 220 items on the wantlist, I'll be collecting for years, but I wouldn't want it any other way. I don't know if I'll collate a similar list for the nineties; probably not, since it's a narrower band of music that I want from that decade and to make a comprehensive list of every desired techno/trance record would be an incredible time sink compared to buying scattershot. I'll probably be collecting nineties music through the 2010s, but at least that catches me up with two decades for one. ^^
hebinekohime: (blissed), cut out from Nano/Fate hotness.
Day 20: What you think makes someone beautiful

Other than good genetics, the most important factor is how they wear themselves. If they feel at home with their own body and their own thoughts, they'll come across as beautiful.

And everybody's welcome to this point of view.
hebinekohime: (we'll watch the stars come out)
Day 18: Why you made your blog, why you still have it

When I saw that there was a platform for unbridled personal expression, and that you could meet other people that were doing the same thing, I was thrilled. It seemed like something I had always wanted. I wanted to broadcast my thoughts to the world, I wanted in on the closeness that sharing journals implied, and I took a great deal of interest in reading other's lives. Call it polyamory of the ego; I get a lot of compersion out of seeing people in the process of becoming.

I still have a journal because the feelings I had in 2002 haven't changed much in 2012... I still like the online diary as a form of expression, and I've made a lot of lasting relationships through it.

Day 19: Your thoughts on your family

I think I'm incredibly lucky to have the parents that I do. They, along with the cousins on my father's side and the close friends who comprise my parents' family of choice, are wonderful, supportive people.

We do fight at times, over money, or life choices, or clashes of values. And we don't always have enough personal space, due to sharing an apartment. But through all of the fighting we've always had a close, communicative relationship, and I've been able to talk about almost anything with them. Coming from two lines of brokenness and dysfunction, that is a small miracle, I think.

cut for food porn )
hebinekohime: (space base), from the cover of Blue Room Released's 2nd compilation "Trip Through Sound".
Day 17: Your idol and why you look up to them

A short essay follows. Be warned, it's gushy. ^_^

Read more... )
hebinekohime: (santa hebi)
Day 14: Write about something you believe in, anything at all

I've talked about this before, but I believe it's important to have a physical space in which to experience and express creativity. Especially in city environments, I think that having a space for art is as important as having green space... the urban landscape can't just be places of consumption. Hangouts are needed, places where culture is disseminated and performed.

One of the problems that Westwood has is a lack of hangouts. Since our regular comic book store closed back in the 90s, three more have opened up and closed within a short period of time. Game and record stores closed in the early 2000s and never came back, with the video arcade closing down a couple of years later. This used to be a mecca for moviegoers, too, but the number of theatres has shrunk from ten in their heyday to three now. I also miss the neighborhood bookstores: Alexandria 2 for the new-agers, Sisterhood for feminist books, and a European store where my parents bought me Tintin books.

Most of all, I miss the discotheques. In the eighties, I used to pass by the ground-floor entrance to a club, Baxter's, and I was so intrigued by it. I thought that it would be so cool to walk down those stairs and see where everything happened. And before that, in the late seventies and early eighties, we had a multi-story disco, Dillons, with a number of different dancefloors. Now that building has a fast food restaurant on the ground floor, with a lot of empty space above. As for Baxter's, it and the adjacent movie theatre (a cozy 4-screen multiplex) were replaced by a Whole Foods. Westwood's nightlife musical culture was zoned out of existence; laws were changed to make a nicer, neater, more businesslike neighborhood. But in large part, the result was more boarded up storefronts and less activity, a problem that persists to this day.

(I found this, which provides some additional context re: Westwood. Though I'd quibble with the rationale presented; actual bars -- O'Hara's, The Westwood Brewing Company -- are well established and seem to be doing a brisk business. So clearly alcohol isn't the problem)

It's been years since I've been to a proper illegal party, too. *grin*

I don't want to understate how important non-physical spaces are in terms of sharing art and fostering diversity. And I don't mean to be somatically chauvinist. A lot of people may be happy with a quotidian meatspace life and a vibrant Internet life, and I don't consider that sad or escapist if it meets their needs. But I'm convinced that humans are still very tribal, and that we need more outlets for that feeling than we often get.

I don't think that the brick-and-mortar culture I grew up with will ever come back to any great extent; my hope is that a new, bohemian art/music/film culture will emerge from its rubble, perhaps based on temporary installments in mixed-use buildings. There may not be "The Place" for many things, but there could be enough micro-places to make up for the lack. And there may not be large, strong subcultures, as we've had in the past, but there could still be a shared strength among many small niche-interest tribes, given enough networking, shared objectives and overlapping spaces.

Day 15: A song that makes you cry and why

The last song I cried to was The Shamen's cover of "Slip Inside This House". Its lyrics about belonging and self-reinvention were things I needed to hear at that point in my life.

It's an interesting song, and somewhat esoteric. The original is here and the cover here.

Day 16: Someone you trust

I trust [personal profile] omnigrowth. They're a dear friend, and a rock of support.

A lot of the people I care about have had to work hard, sometimes too hard, to earn my trust. It's partly due to being socially excluded in the past, and partly just my own fault... even with friends I've known for ages, I have this stupid idea that if I say or do the wrong thing, that'll be it and they'll hate me and won't want anything to do with me anymore. I'm just getting to the point where I understand: friends are people you can screw up around.
hebinekohime: (avventura), taken from bladeandepsilon.com
All RIGHT! I have a job interview at one of the markets tomorrow morning. It's not for the position I applied for, but it's a foot in the door even so, and I could work my way up to a full time store position with some luck and persistence. And I was able to mooch just enough contact info off of friends that I completed my 2nd app, too, so I'll go drop that off later today.

I haven't been interviewed since 2004 ^^; I hope I do OK!
hebinekohime: (strange world)
Day 13: Your favorite quote

"Imagination is the one weapon in the war against reality" - Jules de Gaultier
hebinekohime: (whispers)
Day 12: The best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

See: this entry.


Nothing to report today! I think I win some sort of procrastination award for this week.
hebinekohime: (tasty?)
I think I wrote down the wrong ratio for the cashew milk; today I used closer to half and half, 1/2 cup cashews with around another 2/3 cup water. Oh well! It's not an exact science.

Day 11: The worst advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

Nothing immediately jumps to mind as THE worst advice, but a lot of bad advice that I've heard falls under "pick a (social category) and stick with it". Sometimes people don't seem to realize that these categories are created by us and not the other way around.
hebinekohime: (meta)
Day 10: What you think when you hear the words “be yourself”

People wearing masks speak freely.


Here is some Rin because Rin is awesome )
hebinekohime: (recognition)
Day 9: Things that make you happy

A partial, by no means comprehensive, list:

Human creativity, and all the things born from it. Skinship, giving and receiving affection. Being part of, or privy to a fun conversation. Finding lost pop-cultural treasure in a sea of data. Getting deep into a personal interest or project. Finishing a personal project (it happens sometimes!). Seeing friends succeed. Going on hikes, or just toe-blisteringly long walks. Hot weather and creeping vines. Good-natured humor; mean humor at the right time. Travel, and feeling my way around a new environment. Trying out a new food. Novelty in general. Eighties and nineties retro, reminders of my childhood. The exuberantly natural, and the starkly man-made, and lovely combinations of the two.
hebinekohime: (hemi-static), from Eureka 7.
Day 8: Things that make you sad

Not belonging, or a sense of not being where I should.